It's been months

i dunno what's been going on between us

it's been months

since

the day you doubt me

and i doubt you

we confided secrets to each other

where nobody else knows

but at the same time

i wonder

did you ever trust me at all

i wished i knew everything back then

but now

i wished i didn't

coz everything is ruining our friendship

on the surface nobody makes a step nor a move

but from my sixth sense

something is wrong

maybe i know

maybe i don't

but i just wanna tell you

i missed you.
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i realized for months that i can't talk to you that much anymore

i feel our distance further and further

because i'm moving on

but you're still staying at the same spot

i tried pushing you

pulling you

forcing you

inviting you

but still

you're stuck

my patience is running out

i don't explain stuff you need to understand anymore

i'm simply tired

i tried my best

sometimes i blame myself

but deep in my heart

i knew everything i did was good for you

if you can't receive the message i transmitted to you

i guess it's up to you

it's your life

i can only reach out for your hand if you need me

but what if i went further,so far away that you can't even hear my voice anymore?

maybe it's two different worlds already...

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do you even miss me at all?

I believe

Love is a kind of tacit understanding

i never

understood you